European blood in our veins, and that there was any advantage in the return of the British to power. It was also necessary for us to seem to forget that the Christian God was our God, and we allowed it to be believed that we were Muslims. Kothiwali often offered to teach us the Kalma, but Mother would reply that she knew it already, which was perfectly true. When she was asked to attend prayers with the others, her excuse would be: 'How can we? Our clothes are unclean and we have no others.'
The only clothes we had were those acquired in Lala Ramjimal's house, and, on our third day in Javed's house, he seemed to notice them for the first time.
'Mariam,' he said. 'It won't do to wear such clothes in my house. You must get into a pyajama.'
'Where have I the means to make pyajamas?' asked Mother.
And the same day Javed went and bought some black chintz in the bazaar, and handed it over to Mother. She made us pyajamas and kurta-dupattas, cutting the material, while Anet and I did the sewing.